LIVING ALONE!

The fact of living alone might be as casual as drinking a cup of coffee but the idea of living alone is as tough as tying a shoe lace by someone who has never done it before. This is what exactly happened to me because I never knew how to do it. I had mixed feelings; skeptical ,bewildered ,terrified and the list goes on… And let me bring it out that it wasn’t a piece of cake. It was terribly difficult to sum a woman of sensitivity into a independent and rebellious one. And rebellious in a way where one could fight her demons . It definitely took a lot of time but the time has spoken well.

Dealing with life is always difficult and ‘living alone’ makes it worst at times. Its not that living alone did not made me feel lonely ,it definitely did and there were several times when I did run into others to find comfort. Many a times I was made to realise that not everyone has time to take away your lonliless and you have to learn it. Not everyone who once said ” I am there for you” really meant it. Through crying and then learning i realised that living alone has made my identity . I have encountered and well understood the line between ‘lonliness’ and ‘solitude’ and it is incredible.

From walking alone in street to having a cup of coffee on a rainy Shillong afternoon and buying flowers for myself I realised it is okay to have someone in your life of course it’s a blessing but if not then that’s even okay. Life throws at us many circumstances and somewhere you learn that you are definitely okay without a support . You give the best out and the best comes to you. And definitely you can do this all ALONE.

Deboleena